An old couple

One Berlin street. No specific one. Only one out of the thousands of streets that are going through the heart of Berlin. There is walking an old couple. They are walking along this little two-lane road to arrive at the other side of the street. It is raining. They want to go faster but they are simply not able to. The rain is dropping quicker than they can walk. With each step they take, up to a hundred raindrops fall onto their shoulders steeping the coats. They don’t have any umbrella. (…)

 

Saturday morning at eight thirty

Going to the gym makes me feel better about myself. Since I’ve been three years old I’ve done sports and now, after two serious operations due to competitive sport, I enjoy it even more. Being able to move is for me like breathing air. I know I can’t run like if I would be 17 anymore but who could anyway. Sport is still the thing that makes my life better and makes me confident about my decisions. It has always been my first unconscious acknowledgment of my abilities. I’ve made quite some choices until now and I have to admit that I’m still surprised about my intensity with which I followed my aims. Now it seems like that I will get the results of my endurance and I’m so lucky to be one out of thousand able to say that I will live in another way than my parents did. They wanted that we will live differently, whose parents doesn’t want that their kids will have a better, maybe different life, and they always helped us to achieve our goals and now it is the time to pay back our liabilities. (…)

The beginning of the challenge

What is the life about? What does a person expect from its life? Usually too much. Everybody wants the exciting, hopefully never ending life. Everybody is searching for happiness and peace. But what most of us get is the opposite.  The strange thing about it is that as much as we want it the more we will lose it.

I’m back in Germany, Berlin, since five days and I’ve never felt so calm and strong since the last couple of years and after a big storm. What the storm was about will be another story. Finally, I landed on my feet facing the reality. I newly know what I want and for what I was inwardly looking for. The sun is shining and I dream about the life that I wish for myself. I know that everything could be possible if I believe in me. And in any case I shouldn’t be successful I won’t have a doubt that I tried it at least.

Now, I’m in front of three years that will bring me to the half of a life time and I’m as much as excited as nervous. I never thought that I could be so nervous about my life ever. I always knew what will come or what I wished for. And until now I got the things I wanted in my life and maybe it is possible that I will achieve this last intent too.

I wish you stinky a good and happy life and I hope that everything will work out for you. I was with you and I will always be with you. Whenever you need me I will have a ear for you and I will be always patient with you because you deserve it. You can always ask me, tell me and criticize me. I will be more open. I rebuild the pictures and finally lost them. You have the chance now to be the person you wanted to be and you will be a newborn person for me. I know you will change as much as I will. In this way we will be able to be friends. And thats the hope I have for us. ILedY and I will be always there for you.

I’m the snake changing her skin to be able to move on. I started my challenge …

The Baltic Sea in Germany

Everyday I was thinking about going to the Baltic Sea to have some distraction. Finally, last week, Robert asked if we want to go to the Baltic Sea and I decided spontaneously to go with him. So, Robert, Elise and me went saturday morning to the Sea. It took us some time and it was raining through the whole driving period. We almost give up on the chance that the sun will appear at the sky. We checked in in the hotel, searched for a place to have some late lunch and then the miracle grew. The sun appeared and we walked along the beach. The next day we were lucky again. The sun stayed with us during the whole morning and we layed at the beach, enjoyed the sun and the sound of the water falling on its own waves. The time we decided to go back to Berlin, the clouds came back ferociously and we drove to Stralsund covered in big rain drops. It was great and I loved to be back.